today i return home

where are you? my heart is lonely than ever. our little story? yes, it needs us both to write it urgently. you are the ink to my pen, the muse to my words. the people here are stellar, but where are you? let us lace the words into paper, of you, me and our storybook tapestry.

Hi!

She moves like she don't care
Smooth as silk, cool as air
Ooh it makes you wanna cry
She doesn't know your name
And your heart beats like a subway train
Ooh it makes you wanna die

you know, the last time i heard this song it was when i was 11? 12? 12 la maybe.. and the other day i heard it after soooooo long and boy, didnt it bring back memories of my young(er) days, and now i'm listening to it incessantly ahhhhhhh

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weird

you have the wonderful rainbow-unicorn days

then you have the rubbish lightning-thunder days

and you have the calm, passive breakfast-school-lunch-dinner days

but more often than the rest, you have the number 2 days.

rubbish lightning-thunder days are the effects of close proximity with assholes. the assholes assholes. not the kind that you throw at your close friends just because fowl language is the new language, but the kind that truly (and might i add, proudly) carry the definition of asshole.

personally, i go through life tolerating asshole. sure we all do, but i'm an asshole magnet. you know, cos' opposites attract, yin and yang, the north pole attracts the south pole of a magnet.

and i'm terrified of breathing the air they exhale. it makes me sick. it's as if they've poisoned that air with their assholesness blood and i'm inhaling it hence poisoning my blood and lungs.

assholes have ruined oxygen for me. assholes help me appreciate the people who are not assholes.

assholes also discharge negative energy. they can't help but to bring others down in order to feel good about themselves.

i've taken the courtesy to divide assholes of the world into groups of various kinds.

the self-absorbed & selfish asshole cannot stop talking about him/herself. case in point, when one is upset over something, the self-absorbed asshole will make the entire conversation about him/herself. magnification of personal problems in a conversation completely irrelevant is one of the symptoms. oh ya. another symptom would be that the self-absorbed & selfish asshole would go all out to make life difficult for others to save 2 minutes of own time.

the vile asshole is delusional. thinks that he/she is has the sense of humour of a stand-up comedian and therefore, have the obligation to speak too much, too loud, too uncool.

the shallow asshole thinks that wearing low-rise jeans are basic human rights that is to show the buttcrack (properly termed gluteal cleft). the shallow asshole is terrified of getting too close with people who aren't as gorgeous as them lest the ugly dust exuded will infect them.

the insensitive asshole has zero regard for the emotions of others. the insensitive asshole may often be mistaken for the self-absorbed & selfish asshole. the fine difference between the these two types of assholes is that the insensitive asshole is rudely unceremonious (in overabundance)

the gullible & comformist asshole is well, dupable. the gullible asshole is also the biggest loser (not related to the weight-loss program on tv). the gullible asshole will believe, and believe and believe everything everyone says without a tinge of curiosity of the validity of whatever statements. so shan, why is the gullible asshole the biggest loser? because y'see, when A tells B that C is bitch, and C is actually very nice, only a bitch when provoked (aren't we all?), B (the gullible asshole) just lost one person to befriend. geddit? oh yes, the gullible and conformist asshole is also not opinionated.

the lazy asshole has a job. but the lazy asshole will make his/her inferior workers to do his/her job. the lazy asshole however will take credit for all the work that has been completed. in borderline cases of the lazy asshole, the lazy asshole will ask for a buttwipe.

the scornfully and condescendingly proud asshole is also known as the haughty (lofty, arrogant, to name a few) asshole. this fuck everything only i matter asshole is plain cocky. perhaps this asshole has accomplished a great achievement in his/her life and believes that he/she has the right to be excessively arrogant. i'm afraid no achievement is too great if you don't have modesty in your vocabulary.

the innate asshole is in all of us. at one point in life, we all have been assholes. these form of asshole is the most benign case in history. the innate asshole is aware when being an asshole. the innate asshole transforms into an asshole for self-defence (survival of the fittest).

okay i'm done. i'm sure there's more, but i'm sorta hungry. of course, this post was inspired by a recent close proximity with an asshole.

here's a shoutout to all the assholes who deserve a pencil in the eye! cheers, mate(s)!

i'm back, quite a bit has happened. no more olympics, i'm still mourning with scwee. we've been talking alot like seriously a lot, she called me once from school to ask whether phelps got this 4th gold or not. oh and she messaged me this morning (ahhh, ponteng sekolah) "haha wth..they jz said phelps and stephanie rice set to become an item!! haha dont be sad k" :( :(

oh ya!! my grandparents celebrated their 50th anniversary on sunday. mom and i went earlier for decorations and stuff. can you imagine living with the same person for 50 goddamn years? omg seriously, i dont think i can get that far with anyone. i'll get fed up within the first 3 months hahahha. but anyway, so they had prayers and stuff, renewed their vows, the priests came to the house and started speaking in a language so foreign to me (sigh). oh here are some pics of the prayers..oh! those 2 ppl standing next to me grandparents (sitting down) are my parents!

1972, mark spitz

we lost, but 'tis okay..it'a okay to lose to a better player..and lin dan was good, but thing is, we lost so badly, 21-12, 21-8..so yeah but i reckon he was nervous and pressured lah, cos he did so many silly mistakes, sigh, but it's okay, silver's a good beginning for an olympic medal deprived country...perhaps 2012? oh who am i kidding..miracles happen every 12 years..

on another note, this morning was the last swimming event :( no more phelps :( :( :( now it's just athletics twice a day.. :/

sigh my life has lost its meaning, i cant wait for 2nd sem to begin la, seriously.

oh ya. my neighbour got a new puppy, damn noisy babi sial i swear. i think they dont feed him or her. her la i think. cos my mom asked them what its called and they said, pushpa. WTF MAN can anyone get anymore indian?? whatever, the mother is from india and you can hear the prayer bells ringing every 2 hours and the smell of incense sticks..and my house is the exact opposite, oh the irony of life..wtf ok la, im so upset now i'll sulk at the corner of my room...

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG


8/8

OMG fastest man on planet earth goes tooooooooooooo USAIN BOLT! whooooot! he was so fast, halfway he can slow down somemore look at his left then stick his hands out and cross the finishing line, world record time of 9.69 seconds (100m)! world's fastest man you knowwwwww! i was kinda pissed off though, cos if he didnt waste time slowing down turning left and all, he could have set a greater world record time! god so annoying la, he was very very fast though, like super fast like fast fast fast fast! maybe by tmrw it'll be on youtube or smth, but omg he so fast!!!!!! watch the clip if you can..and after that, he started doing this funky dance lolz..oh and there's conflict about phelps' gold today, the serbians are making a fuss out of it, but yeah, i sorta feel bad for them la, but then the touch pad never lies, does it?

OMG phelps has done it againnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn DOES ANYONE EVEN WATCH??? this olympics is really awesome la! first medal for m'sia since 1996, mr.intensity didn't qualify, phelps kicking ass shit man seriouslyyyyyy ok back to phelps! fuck man, his record time was 50.58 secs, and the serbian guy(silver medal), was 50.59 that's one hundreth of a second!!!!!! and the world record holder for that event got number 4! ian crockerr! sigh

seriously la! it was 100 m right, and he wasn't even in the first 4 for the first 50m then like the last 2cm or smth, he managed to bring his hand forward and touch the wall! fuck ppl, its no fun if i talk about it la, watch it! tomorrow's the final swimming event arghhh :( and tomorrow is the badminton finals too! sigh ok la wait for tomorrow, au revoir!

omg m'sia confirmed a silver at least! YAYYYYY!! badminton finals are on sunday, i hope chong wei lee kicks ass! i hope he can get a gold! we're deprived on medals! even india got dy ok! and vietnam and indon and thailand!!! its about time..im so happy seriously..fuck man im so glad im on holidays now, it's so nice to see a legend in the making (phelps!) see one way or the other, i will end up talking about him..sigh..more updates tmrw!

badminton finals on sunday, 17th, at 1800

update: hahaha he totally won another one!!! wohooooo 6/8, and can you believe all 6 golds are world records? dude's a robot i swear..anyway 2 more! whooooot


yay! athletics starts today!! im so happy, ive been watching swimming and diving and gymnastics in the past week, cos netball basketball handball volleball whatball so boring..im looking forward to seeing mr. intensity! adam nelson baybehhh! ok la bye, phelps is swimming in half an hour's time, check for updates!

omg he won another one just now! 4/8

OMG AND ANOTHER ONE!!!!! what the fuck is wrong with this man? he's like a freak of nature! a machine in water, seriously! it's one thing if the gap between number 1 and number 2 is small but phelps is 1, and the number 2 guy is about 2 whole bodies away from phelps! and number 2 was so amazing! wtf wtf wtf

5/8

about a sec ago, phelps won his 3rd gold! :) 200 freestyle men, no one really cares, but im gonna update anyway so 12 months from now i get to laugh at myself silly.. :) anyway, he broke the world record made by ian thorpe(do) wheeeee

3/8

OMG i was screaming at the tv this morning! i still cannot get over the 4x100 swimming relay men!!!! like seriouslyyyyyy goodness! im talking about it all the time, my dad's annoyed...omg seriously!! you see, the thing is right, phelps has said that he's aiming for 8 golds this time around..and he has won the first one, so when it came to the 4x100 event, he went first, and he was in the lead, but when it the 2nd guy's turn, the french managed to take over, and they remained first during the 3rd guy's turn too! and then it was the 4th guy's turn (jason lezak) and he remained 2nd too, for the first 80m that is! the commentators were all like, oh too bad for phelps, the french are gonna get this gold! and all that rubbish..then miraculously lady luck shined down at lezak (in the last 20m) and he touched the finishing line (or in this case, wall)!! and omg phelps was soooo happy, man, you cud totally see his veins and bones and hmmm...*falls into a reverie*

so anyway, phelps, 6 more golds!! :) ill be watching you tmrw too! (i dont have a life) luckily beijing same latitude (or was it longitude) as us la!

stay tuned for more phelps gushing tmrw!

i'd like some, coke i mean

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omg i was watching swimming just now (the heats) and omg i think i have a crush on michael phelps. goodness..he won his batch for heats and he was pretty fast! and then he stepped outta the pool and omg his body, he's got such a slender body and his cheekbones and he's clean shaven..yummyyyyy

/end of blonde character


rip, bernie mac.

the opening ceremony was brilliant. it started off with the beating of fou (correct me if i'm wrong) drums for the countdown. next they revealed a gargantuan scroll where most performances was held. that too was different. and the way the torch was lit was wow. they had one of their greatest athlete to "run", not on ground but on air (on suspenders, duh), around the bird nest stadium. that was fancy. you can tell they put a lot of thought and creativity into making it a success. but you know what was so boring? the bit where they introduced all 200+ countries. it's tradition, i know, but i found it so long and dull. except for when yao ming, kobe bryant, nadal and federer appeared :)

atm czech republic and china won 2 gold medals, for shooting and weighlifting respectively. both women somemore! whooot! GIRL POWER!

so i received a postcard from joyce just now. she was in spain and now she's back in london, she's a nice chum. and you know, when i met her the first time she looked strangely familiar then she said she did her alevels in inti! can the world get anymore smaller? and omg you know what else! one of my classmates is from brunei, and i had another classmate from brunei when i did my sam in inti, and i randomly asked this present classmate of mine if he knew wilson and he said he did! (i asked him to prove that he knew wilson and he mentioned wilson's twin sister's name). world's getting smaller.



you can see the balls quite clearly

cancer sticks

i reckon smoking rooms should be established everywhere. since the tak nak campaign isn't as effective as the government aimed for, we should put a halt to posters with yellow teeth and blackened lungs on traffic lights.

the next step should be erecting smoking rooms. there are 2 ways of seeing this - you're either encouraging smoking or you're preventing non-smokers from passive smoking (involuntary inhalation of smoke by a person who occupies an area with a smoker).

don't get the wrong idea, i don't smoke and i'm very much still a cigarette virgin. but to say i'm a passive smoking virgin is a lie. and because of that, i probably have hacked out half of my lungs. my dad was a smoker, let me rephrase that, he was a chain-smoker for about 10 years. and then he met my mom and he quit...wtf so tacky. so the fact that i grew up cigarette-free was a deterrent itself.

but back to the point, smoking rooms would be a brilliant idea. i should write to the government. sure it's gonna require a lot of spending but it's better than spending millions of money on frivolous things (eg. mercedes-benz cars for ministers, expensive training courses for government servants at 5 star hotels, etc). now in the smoking room itself, i suggest we should set up a board displaying the physical effects of smoking, as mentioned above. pasting these posters on sheltered walls are much better than pasting them on billboards and traffic lights and whatnot. mainly cos' the colour fades after some time and when it rains, it gets ruined (cos' m'sia damn cheap don't use good quality)

i wouldn't suggest putting an absolute ban on smoking since it'll just disrupt the economy. besides, why should we obviate their rights to mutilate their lungs?

i just wish they'd get a room, y'know. preferably on the rooftop, that way, they're closer and can sniff off to heaven.

i've come to the realization that i just cannot allow myself to care anymore.

i made (and am making) a great amount of friends - school, college and uni. however, for the few people who remind me of the cynic i am capable of being, i have kept a distance from them. i don't go on MSN anymore because of this, i don't read certain blogs anymore because of this. you may call this running away if you must, but it isn't so to me. i've settled my debts, i've explained myself but if this isn't enough, i don't know what will ever satisfy ye hunger. i've drowned a part of me that i wish to never see again and i hope i never will.

i don't resent them, i never will. i just refuse to care as much as i do because they remind me of everything that i was, they bring out the insecurities in me.

i love my friends, i really do. and more often that not, in my strange ways, i try to corroborate my gratitude for them. i may not say it aloud but i try my best to show gratitude in discrete ways and sometimes, this does not seem to be enough for others but that's all i'm capable of.

i also have this thing in me, that some have noticed and taken advantage of. the discretion to capitulate; to not-be-able-to-relate-to-what-you-said-i've-done,-but-just-for-you-i-bite-
my-tongue, to say "it's alright, this will elapse" is something i cannot comprehend, but i am.

and with that, say hello to the enlightened me.